But a blog that I have to write. Even now I’m procrastinating – tweeting and checking other websites cos I’m not sure how to write it, not sure I want to put things down in words. To see it in black and white on my screen, to post it on my website somehow makes it true in a way it isn’t now.
So…… The Boss and I have ended our D/s relationship.
What this means in reality – we are still friends, and hope in time to still be able to play together, but right now, I am feeling a little too raw for that. You will still see him on my site, and he will still be involved behind the scenes as well. We dont hate each other, we just acknowledge that the relationship wasn’t working, and it was bringing us (and those around us) down. I am still with my lovely R, and am still part of the family that the 4 of us have built together
Currently I’m exhausted and a little run down, but that will pass. I am sad, but I am doing what I need to get through, and part of that is not allowing myself to wallow and close myself off from the world. If I seem like I am being cold and unfeeling, I’m not. I have to do what I need to carry on.